Friends, I am on the struggle bus. FRFR
Changes are happening, and no matter how much I internally kick and scream and desperately try to hold on… nothing will stop them.
My kids are growing up.
My oldest is about to move out, and my youngest just stopped nursing this week.
My loved ones are aging.
I want to hold on to these years so, so desperately.
And yet, time moves on.
It almost feels cruel. The more I love life, the faster it seems to go by.
I’m doing my best to embrace the changes, because I know I can’t prevent them.
I’m trying to trust that in each season of life, there will be sweetness and joy and things that I cherish.
But truthfully, it’s hard to see that right now.
I don’t want this time in my life to be over.
I want another baby, but that isn’t an option.
I didn’t want to stop nursing Chase, but it was time.
>> No amount of cliche sayings could prepare me for the roller coaster feelings I am experiencing right now. <<
“The days are long but the years are short”
You can’t possibly understand or fully appreciate this until you are experiencing it.
So while on one hand, I’m sharing on social media about my vision board dreams coming true, because they are, on the other hand I am deeply grieving and struggling with moving on to the next stage of my life.
Here’s what I know: The duality of human existence can be a bitch to navigate.
So if you’re struggling with changes in your life, I want you to know that you aren’t alone.
I know I’ll be ok. And I’m thankful I have the tools to work through these struggles and the support I need.
But… it’s still hard.